Madrid, dominant, and one week in four I disappear
Posted as one_week_in_four
- Looking for
- someone who does not take a cancellation as a verdict
- Experience
- Seventeen years leading, two long dynamics, one lasting nine.
- Around
- Chamberí, Madrid
I am on call one week in four and I cannot tell you in advance which evenings of that week will vanish. Some of them all do. Twice in the last year I have left in the middle of something and driven back across the city in twenty minutes, and both times the person I left handled it well, and both times I could see it cost them something.
Forty six, Madrid, hospital work, dominant for seventeen years. Two dynamics of any length, the second of them nine years, and it ended for reasons that were about children and geography rather than about this.
I plan carefully because I have to. I keep three weeks of structure written down in advance so that when a week goes, what remains still holds its shape. Tasks continue. Reports continue. The daily part of a dynamic is the part I am good at, precisely because the weekly part is unreliable.
What I need from the other side is somebody who can hear the word cancelled without hearing anything else in it. I have watched two people slowly turn my rota into evidence that they were not important, and I understand the logic, and I cannot argue with a feeling.
I lead calmly, in a fairly domestic register. Service, rules, correction that is a conversation rather than an implement. I am not interested in anything that would show. Not interested in someone who wants to be my only source of anything. And I will ask you early whether anybody in your life would be hurt by this, because I have learned to ask.