My face is known in this city and it decides everything
Posted as known_by_sight
- Looking for
- a dominant who takes discretion seriously without dramatising it
- Experience
- Twelve years, two dynamics, both entirely invisible.
- Around
- the 19th, Paris
I work for the city and a reasonable number of people here recognise me. Not fame, nothing like it. Simply the ordinary local visibility of somebody who appears at public meetings and whose name is attached to decisions that annoy people. It means I cannot sit in a café in my own quarter with a stranger without a conversation happening about it somewhere within a week.
Forty seven, Paris, submissive, twelve years. Both of my dynamics were entirely invisible to everybody, including close friends, and both lasted years, and I am not sorry about the secrecy.
What discretion means for me practically: no photographs of my face, ever, to anyone. First meetings a long way from my own arrondissement, and I will happily do the travelling. Nothing written anywhere that connects a name to any of this. I am not going to be at any event, at any point, anywhere I might be recognised.
I am aware this asks a great deal and gives very little in the early stages. I would rather set it out at the beginning than have it emerge as a series of small refusals that look like reluctance.
What I want is a long domestic arrangement. Service, rules, correction, someone who knows my week and holds me to things. Very little impact. Nothing that leaves a mark I would have to explain to a colleague. I would want to write for a long time before meeting, which in my case is caution and not preference, though I have come to enjoy it.