I hold a state licence, which is the whole reason for the paranoia
Posted as nurses_licence
- Looking for
- a long dynamic with someone who understands professional exposure
- Experience
- Nine years, two dynamics, both entirely invisible to everyone I know.
- Around
- the east side, Dallas
My licence has a conduct clause in it. I have read that clause more times than is healthy and I still could not tell you exactly where its edge is, which is precisely the problem, because the vagueness means the only safe position is total.
Thirty seven, on the east side, submissive, nine years. I work twelve hour shifts in a pattern that repeats every three weeks. That part is boring and manageable and I will send you the pattern in writing if we get that far.
Two dynamics, both long, both completely invisible. Neither of them ended because of the secrecy, which I mention because people assume it must have. They ended because one man moved to another state and the other one wanted children and I did not.
What I want now is the same shape again. Somebody I see regularly, who runs things, who I answer to, and who never appears anywhere near the rest of my life. I am good at compartments. I have had a great deal of practice.
What I want inside it is service and obedience and a fair amount of being told what to do about ordinary things. I do not want pain, I do not want anything that leaves anything, and I do not want to be humiliated in front of anybody, which is a thing I have had to say four times this year. Not looking for a dominant who works in health care, for reasons that should be obvious. Not looking for anyone who will need me to explain the shift pattern more than twice.