Responsible for other people's bodies all day, and I want one evening off
Posted as off_the_clock_m
- Looking for
- one reliable evening a week where nothing is my decision
- Experience
- Four years, one dynamic of two years, ended when she left the city.
- Around
- Altona, Hamburg
A shift can go from ordinary to frightening in ninety seconds and I am the person who has to be calm about it. I am good at that. What I have discovered is that being good at it costs something, and the bill arrives at about nine in the evening when I cannot decide what to eat.
Twenty nine, Altona, submissive, four years in. I work in maternity care and the hours are not as chaotic as people assume, but they are long, and the responsibility does not switch off at the door.
What I want is one evening a week where somebody else decides. Not a scene, necessarily. Not anything that has to be dramatic. Being told what we are doing, being expected to have done the small things I was asked to do, and being corrected properly when I have not.
I do want impact and I am specific about it. Nothing on my hands, nothing visible above a collar, nothing that would make a twelve hour shift harder the next day. Those are practical limits rather than squeamish ones and they are not up for renegotiation halfway through an evening.
I am not looking for a dominant who wants to hear hospital stories. I am not looking for anything on a Sunday, which is the only day my sister and I have. And I am not looking for someone who treats one evening a week as an opening position to be argued upwards from, because that is exactly what happened last time and the negotiation ruined it.