Twenty nine, out at the southern edge, and further from everything than you think
Posted as six_days_a_week
- Looking for
- someone who will not need me to be nearby to be interested
- Experience
- Two years, one dynamic, conducted almost entirely through a screen.
- Around
- the south of the city, Madrid
Look at where I am on a map of this city and it seems reasonable. Then try to actually get anywhere from here on a working week, and the reasonable disappears. The middle is an hour and two changes each way, and the last train back leaves before anything up there has properly started. Everything is technically possible and practically it is not.
Twenty nine, Madrid, submissive, two years in this, and all of those two years have happened through a screen with somebody who lived at the far end of the other side and who I met twice.
I work in the markets, which means my hours are set by the lorries and my week has six days in it for most of the year. I share a flat with two cousins. I am not going to be hosting anybody, ever, and I could not explain a visitor.
So what I am realistically asking for is somebody who wants to run something at a distance and who is honest that this is what it is rather than treating it as a stage before the real thing. My last dynamic was good precisely because we both stopped pretending it was temporary in month three.
I want rules, tasks, being answerable. I want somebody to notice when I go quiet, because I do, and it usually means something. I am not going to be able to travel much and I am not going to lie about that to keep a conversation going. Two years ago I would have. It wasted six months of somebody's life and some of mine.