Madrid, and if this came out my family would not recover
Posted as nobody_here_knows
- Looking for
- someone who understands discretion without treating it as a game
- Experience
- Four years, all of it careful, two short dynamics.
- Around
- the south of the city, Madrid
I come from a family where this would not be a scandal so much as a catastrophe, and the fact that I am thirty seven and a grown man does not change the arithmetic at all. My mother, my brothers, the street they live on, the people they know. It would not be survivable in the form my life currently takes.
I am not asking anybody to feel sorry for me about it. I have made my choices and this is the cost of them, and I would rather be plain about the cost than dress it up as caution.
What discretion means in practice: no photographs of my face at any point, to anybody. Nothing written down that identifies me. I will not meet anyone in daylight anywhere near the streets my family lives on, which sounds dramatic and is simply arithmetic when your mother's entire world is four blocks wide. I will happily meet on the far side of the city and I will do the driving.
Submissive, four years, two short dynamics both of which ended because the other person got tired of the logistics, which I understood in both cases. What I want is something long and quiet. Rules I keep on my own, contact most days, time together perhaps twice a month, and no expectation that any of it becomes visible.
I know how this reads. I know it looks like a man hiding a wife. I am not married and there is nobody who would be hurt by this except me, and I would be hurt a very great deal.