Retired in March, and I have discovered I have nothing to do
Posted as too_much_time_now
- Looking for
- a submissive who wants daily attention from somebody who has it
- Experience
- Twenty seven years, two long arrangements, one lasting twelve.
- Around
- the 18th, Paris
I retired on the last Friday of March after thirty eight years and I have spent every week since discovering that I built a whole personality out of being busy. I am not depressed about it. I am simply available in a way I have never been in my adult life and I would like to do something with that.
Fifty eight, Paris, dominant, twenty seven years. Two arrangements of substance, the longer of which ran twelve years and ended six years ago when she died. I have not looked for anything since and I am aware that six years is a long time to be out of practice.
What I can offer now, which I could not offer at forty, is attention. Daily, unhurried, without a diary constantly pulling at it. Structure that is actually maintained rather than intended. Somebody who reads your report properly instead of at eleven at night between two other things.
What I want is a long domestic dynamic. Service, rules, protocol that has a purpose. Almost no impact. A great deal of talking. I am aware that daily attention is not what everyone wants and that for some people it would be suffocating. Say so and I will believe you.
I would want to write first and I write at length, which is a habit from a working life full of reports and which I am told is either reassuring or exhausting. I live alone in a flat that is too big for one person and I can host.