I am a completely different person between June and September
Posted as june_to_september
- Looking for
- somebody who is happy to build slowly through the cooler months
- Experience
- Eight years, three dynamics, all of which began in the winter.
- Around
- the north zone, Rio de Janeiro
Every single relationship I have had in this started in July or August. Every one. I noticed the pattern about four years ago and it has since become the thing I plan around rather than an accident.
The reason is not mysterious. From November onwards I work longer, the hospital is fuller, the city is louder, and by the time I get home I have nothing left for anybody. Then it cools down, the year gets quieter, and I become a person with an evening again.
Forty five, north zone, submissive, eight years. I work in a hospital on a rotation that repeats every four weeks and I will happily write it out for you. Three dynamics, the longest five years, and it ended for reasons that had nothing to do with any of this.
What I want is a long arrangement with real structure in it. Service, protocol, standing rules, and correction that is spoken rather than administered. I have never been interested in pain and after eight years I have stopped treating that as something to explain.
If you are reading this in June, I am the best version of myself for the next four months and I would like to spend some of them getting to know somebody properly. If you are reading it in January, write anyway, and be patient with how slow I am. Not looking for anybody who wants intensity in the summer. Not looking for someone who reads tiredness as indifference.