Born here, submissive, and I know nobody in this at all
Posted as born_here_know_nobody
- Looking for
- someone who would not mind that I am starting from nothing
- Experience
- Five years, most of it in my own head.
- Around
- the west of the city, Berlin
I have lived in this city my whole life and I do not know one single person in this. That is the honest starting position, and it is why this post exists rather than me simply meeting somebody.
Thirty four, submissive, I work from home for a company that is not in this country and I can go a whole week without a conversation that is not a video call. Five years of knowing what I am and almost no practice, because everybody here seems to have arrived already knowing four people and I somehow did not.
What I want is not exotic. Somebody to be under the authority of, properly, with rules that hold through a week I spend mostly alone in a flat. Then real time, which is the easy part here: an hour on a train gets me anywhere and I am not precious about which end of the city.
I have thought about the shape of this a lot. Daily contact, a standing evening, that sort of rhythm. It is not everybody's idea of a dynamic and I am not going to pretend I have a better option available.
Discretion for me is about one building rather than a whole city. I share a stairwell with people who have known my mother for thirty years, so nothing happens at mine and that is not negotiable. Not interested in anybody who assumes that living here means I am already having a wonderful time. It is loud, it is not as cheap as it was, and it is quite lonely, and whoever writes to me should have understood that.