Twenty three, know nothing, and refusing to pretend otherwise
Posted as nothing_yet
- Looking for
- somebody patient enough to start at the actual beginning
- Experience
- None. Six months of reading and one very awkward conversation.
- Around
- St Pauli side, Hamburg
I have read a great deal and done nothing. That is the whole of my experience and I am leading with it rather than letting it surface in the third message, which is what happened last time and which felt like being caught at something.
Twenty three, St Pauli side, and I think I switch, though the honest version is that I do not know, because knowing would require having done any of it. I notice I want to be in charge of some things and very much not in charge of others, and that is genuinely as far as my self knowledge goes.
What I want is somebody willing to start at the beginning. Not a crash course. A slow, ordinary set of conversations, then meeting, then finding out what any of it feels like when there is a person in the room instead of a paragraph.
I am nervous about all of this and I am also not fragile. There is a difference and people run the two together. I will ask a lot of questions and I will say when something is wrong. I share a flat, I work in a shop, and my hours change every fortnight.
Not looking for anybody whose hobby is being the person who introduces somebody to everything. Not looking to rush to a first evening. Not looking for anyone who describes themselves as a mentor in the opening message, because all three who did wanted something rather more specific than mentoring.