Twenty four, first post, and I have rewritten this eleven times
Posted as shelter_hours
- Looking for
- somebody patient enough to let me be new at this
- Experience
- None in person. A year of reading and one long conversation.
- Around
- the east side, Los Angeles
I have written this eleven times and deleted ten. The deleted versions were either trying to sound experienced or trying to sound casual, and both were lies, so here is the honest one.
Twenty four, the east side, submissive, and completely new. Everything I know came out of books, out of a forum, and out of one long conversation with a woman who was kind to me and then moved to another state.
I work at an animal shelter, which means early mornings, wet shoes, and most of my emotional energy going to creatures who cannot thank me for it. I am home by four most days and free from then on, and I share a place with two other people, so I cannot host, ever.
What I want is to learn from somebody who actually knows what they are doing, slowly, without being hurried toward things I have not thought about yet. I would like rules. I would like to be told when I have done something properly, which I understand is an odd thing to put in an advertisement, and I am leaving it in because it is true.
I am nervous and I am not going to pretend otherwise, but I am not fragile and I do not want handling like glass. What I do not want is anybody who calls himself a teacher in the first message and wants to meet in the same week. I have read enough to know how that one usually goes.