I left this circle eight years ago after a row and I am back
Posted as people_will_remember
- Looking for
- somebody who will ask me about it rather than hear a version
- Experience
- Twenty five years, two long arrangements, and one very public falling out.
- Around
- the 7th, Lyon
Eight years ago I fell out badly with people I had known for a decade. It was about how somebody had been treated. I was not the person who behaved badly, and I still handled the aftermath poorly enough that I left rather than argue about it for another year. In a world of forty people, leaving means leaving entirely.
Fifty six, dominant, the 7th, twenty five years in. I am back because eight years is long enough and because I have missed it, and I am writing this on the assumption that some people reading will know exactly who I am and will already have a version of the story. There are at least three versions. Mine is not automatically the true one.
What I would ask is that you ask me. I will tell you the whole of it, including the parts that do not flatter me, and then you can decide for yourself. What I would rather not have is somebody deciding on a summary from a person who was not in the room.
What I want is a long arrangement with a submissive man. Domestic, structured, quiet. Rules that run daily, service, a standing evening, correction that is spoken. I am a great deal calmer than I was at forty eight, which is the only good thing eight years away has given me.
Not looking for anyone who wants the gossip. Not looking to be reintroduced to anybody. Not looking for a person currently close to those involved, which would be unfair to all three of us.