Twenty five, first post anywhere, and I have deleted it twice
Posted as deleted_this_twice
- Looking for
- one patient person and a conversation that goes nowhere near a plan
- Experience
- None with anybody. Two years of reading and thinking.
- Around
- Salford, Manchester
This is the third time I have written this and the first time I have not deleted it. The other two got as far as a paragraph about myself that read like a job application, at which point I gave up, so I am going to try being honest instead and see how that goes.
Twenty five, Salford, sharing with three people I like. I have never done any of this with another person. I have known about it since I was nineteen or so, and I have spent about two years reading, and I am at the point where reading more is just a way of not doing anything.
The switch part is not me hedging. When I imagine it, both directions are there, roughly equally, and I have no idea which one will turn out to be true in practice or whether both will. I would rather say that now than pick one to sound more decided.
What I want first is to talk to somebody. Not a plan, not a scene, not a list of things we might do. A conversation, and then a coffee somewhere ordinary in daylight, and then we will see.
I am nervous and I am not going to pretend otherwise. Not looking for anyone who wants to meet this week. Not looking to be somebody's first experience of teaching. Not looking for photographs, and I will not be sending any, which I understand is a lot of people's first question.