Honestly, I want a friend in this before I want a partner
Posted as a_friend_first
- Looking for
- one person to talk to honestly, with no expectation of anything else
- Experience
- Two years of reading and thinking. Almost nothing done.
- Around
- the north, Moscow
I have never said any of this out loud to another human being. Not to my closest friend, not to the man I was with for three years, not to anybody. Everything I know about myself in this respect exists entirely inside my own head and it has been there for a long time and it is starting to feel airless.
Twenty nine, the north, and I think switch, though I have so little to go on that I am half guessing. I work in a laboratory, I am quiet, I am reasonably good company once I have stopped being nervous, which takes about an hour.
What I am asking for is not a dynamic. It is one person who has been doing this for a while and would be willing to be a friend to somebody who has not. To talk to. To ask the stupid questions of. To be able to say a true sentence to about myself without watching a face change.
If that is all it ever is, that would already be more than I have now. If something else came of it much later, that would have to be mutual and unhurried and neither of us should assume it.
I know that a person asking for a friendship on a personals board is slightly odd. I have read this board for two years and I have seen enough people say the same thing to think I am not the only one. Not looking for a mentor in the sense of somebody who wants to teach me by doing. Not looking to be anybody's first project. Not looking to meet quickly.