I have watched this board empty and refill four times over
Posted as fifteen_years_still_here
- Looking for
- one person who is still going to be around in two years
- Experience
- Twenty eight years, both directions, four dynamics of real length.
- Around
- the centre, Rio de Janeiro
I have been reading and writing on things like this since before most people had a phone in their pocket. The vocabulary has improved out of all recognition and people negotiate better than we ever did, and I would not undo a single one of those changes.
What has got worse is staying. Fifty four, near the centre, switch, twenty eight years. Four dynamics of real length, the last of which ran nine years and ended amicably three years ago. This year I have had six conversations that were genuinely interesting and every single one of them simply stopped, without a reason, from people who had been writing daily.
I do not think anybody is behaving badly. I think having a great many options does something to a person and it is nobody's fault in particular. But I am going to be honest that it has worn me down.
What I want is one person, over years, both directions available. I lead a little more than I follow. Service and protocol interest me, pain does not, which surprises people who assume long experience means an escalating appetite.
I live alone, I can host, and I am semi retired with more free time than most. Not looking for a correspondent. Not looking for anybody who wants to keep options open, which is fine and simply not what I have left in me. Not looking to be told I am too serious about it.