Twenty seven, and I genuinely do not know what I am
Posted as honestly_no_idea_yet
- Looking for
- someone patient who will work it out alongside me
- Experience
- A year and a half, two brief things, no conclusions.
- Around
- the east zone, São Paulo
Every post on this board is written by somebody who sounds certain. I have been at this eighteen months and my honest position is that I do not know, and I have decided that pretending otherwise would be a bad way to start something.
Twenty seven, São Paulo, and I am calling myself a switch because it is the closest available word, not because I have any evidence. Two brief things: one where I was very much not in charge and liked it and then felt strange about it for a week, and one where I was and enjoyed it more than I expected and have not stopped thinking about since.
What I would like is somebody who finds that interesting rather than annoying. Ideally somebody with experience, who does not need me to arrive with a completed picture of myself, and who will not decide on my behalf which one I am because it suits them.
I am also very happy for this to be friendship for a good while. Most of what I have learned in eighteen months came from talking to people rather than doing anything, and I am in no rush.
I live with two friends in the east zone, I cannot host, and I work regular hours.
Not looking for anybody who says they will help me find out what I am and means that they will show me. Two people have said that in almost those words and both times something in my chest went quiet, and I have learned to trust that.